This doesn’t mean tears don’t fall , or that I don’t have mornings where I wake up with a very real, physical pain in my chest. My heart hurts because I miss Nathan so much. Today Jan 26, 2026 is 2 years since Nathan’s passing.

For the past couple months, I’ve been thinking a lot about the Bible passage when King David loses his son after days of fasting, crying & praying for him. His servants can’t believe how he quickly gets up, washes, & worships God. He explains to them:

“While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’ But now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.” (2 Samuel 12:22-23)

“I will go to him” this is what I hold on to…this is my grief, hope, & surrender all wrapped up.

If you are struggling , or if know someone who is struggling and don’t know how to help them, please dial 988. I’m praying for all of you tonight.